Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts

Sunday, 24 January 2016

The 10 stages of tiredness

I really like my sleep, I know most people do. I don’t think I’ve heard anyone say, “I do not like my sleep, I prefer to sleep as little as possible.” I’m pretty sure I need around 9 hours a night to be firing on all cylinders - turbo charge. And at least 8 - 8.5 to be firing on 80% of cylinders. Christ knows how Margaret Thatcher did it is all I can say. Having Erin has introduced me to the several new stages on my tiredness spectrum. Here they are:
  1. Fogginess, kind of like moving in slow motion through thick clouds. Being asleep yet with your eyes open and making breakfast.
  2. Not being able to concentrate on anything for more than 3 seconds such as, walking away from cooking food to put washing out and totally forgetting about food until you can smell burning or asking someone a question and listening to them answer it having forgotten what you’d asked them.
  3. Not being able to retain thoughts for more than 3 seconds, for example, walking into a room purposefully and having no idea why your there.
  4. Irrational irritability with fellow pedestrians that just happen to be in your way, or someone that is hogging the swings at the park.
  5. Edginess - jumping at noises that are a normal part of your daily life, like the kettle boiling, or the washing machine beeping when it finishes its cycle.
  6. Crying at adverts, the news, soap operas.
  7. Finding an alternative (negative) meaning for everything some one says.
  8. Finding everything some one says incredible annoying.
  9. Seeing things moving out the corners of your eyes that aren’t actually moving.
  10. Crying but not knowing why.
6.30am flight to Minorca. Around stage 5.

Monday, 24 August 2015

BC (before child) / AC (after child)

Things I used to day dream about BC:
  • Jake Gyllenhal
  • travelling the world
  • new shoes
  • various exciting career paths
  • starting my own business 
  • playing drums in a band
  • winning the lottery
Things I now day dream about AC:
  • getting a dishwasher (wouldn’t that be amazing!) 
  • getting a cleaner (wouldn’t that be amazing!)
  • having a nanny (wouldn’t that be amazing!) 
  • waking up at 10am
  • spa days
  • having a personal shopper
  • winning the lottery
How do your BC/AC day dreams differ?

6 times in 1 day! That is my washing up record since having Erin and being around the house much more - resulting in my dishwasher day dreams!


Sunday, 2 August 2015

An only child?

(Follows on from 'Number 2?')

So potentially I could have an only child. This is considered, by some, as child abuse. Should I have another child even though it could reck and ravage my elderly frame with absolutely no ‘bounce’ back left and the hightened risks to the baby of conditions such as downs syndrome.  Then there's the practicalities like, we only have two bedrooms, a small house, not a lot of money left after the mortgage, bills and now nursery fees are paid. Is this all irrelevant in comparison to the need of Erin to have  a sibling? Would I be selfish not to provide this for her?

What if they just fight all the time and then don't get on as adults? I know a few only children who have really close relationships with their parents. Would I be hindering forging a close relationship with my daughter by spreading myself too thin by caring for two? I'm enjoying her so much at this wonderful age. We are really happy would having another jeopodise this?



Not forgetting I really don't know how people do it! I still stare at people with 2 plus children in wonderment. If they have 3 plus my jaw drops open and I stop in my tracks - are their kids easier to deal with? Do they not need as much sleep as me? Are they the nanny? Am I just not a natural at this?

My sister has two children and I watch them playing together and it is so nice for them and with two would selfishly mean less work for me in regards to playing! But my nephews also fight a lot and wind each other up which is a lot of work too. I had a flash the other day of Erin standing at the top of the stairs on Christmas day, aged 10, on her own looking so sad which made my chest ache.

Am I being totally self indulgent with this dilemma, maybe I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant again? I’m 35 my fertility is probably in a speedy decline.